Sink or Swim - Andy Cowle
CHAPTER ONE
On board the Parvina
Leaning on the rail at the stern of the cruise ship Parvina, sipping his champagne, Eddie Munro looked out across the water and into the darkness. There was a warm, gentle breeze, and the sea was calm except for the dizzy trail of water churned up by the ship's angry propellers. It was a beautiful evening and there was no one else on deck. Eddie liked it that way.
He looked down at his watch, which showed 10.31 p.m., and the ship was already half a mile from the harbour. He was amazed that such a huge cruise ship could move so fast — he was amazed it stayed afloat at all! He watched St Thomas island getting further and further away. He stared at the silhouette of the island, at its faint black shapes of hills rising up into the night sky. Eddie smiled to himself as he noticed he could no longer see where the lights ended and the stars began.
He finished his champagne and, for good luck, threw the glass far out into the sea. He never heard it drop. He couldn't see much at all in the warm Caribbean darkness, but he noticed for the first time how high up he was. The sea was a long, long way down, he thought.
At this point his wife, Lynn, came out looking for him, wearing her long black evening dress and the silk purple scarf she had bought on the excursion earlier in the day. Her hair was dark and short with plum-coloured highlights.
He turned to put his arm around her as she joined him. He noticed her perfume, a powerful and luxurious scent.
«Hello,» he said, turning round. «You smell nice. And you look lovely. Are you married?»
«Yes, thank you. To a very wealthy man, so you have no chance,» she said, smiling.
«Ah. But so am I.»
«Ah, so you're married to a wealthy man, are you?»
«I mean I'm wealthy. Very rich, in fact.»
«Well aren't you the lucky one,» Lynn said.
«Yes, so if you're lucky, I might buy you dinner,» said Eddie, turning back to look out to sea once more.
«Well, lucky me. How can I refuse such charm?» She looked at him and took hold of his hand. She smiled and stared out into the night, too, to the island which was now even further away.
«I thought I'd find you out here,» she said. «How many glasses have you thrown into the sea this evening?»
«Only two,» he said.
«Eddie!»
«It's good luck.»
«No, it isn't. Not if you're a fish and you get hit by a glass.»
«The fish might like it. It's probably quite boring being a fish. The sudden arrival of a champagne glass might brighten up your life.»
«Or end it,» she said.
«It's fun,» said Eddie. «You should try it.»
«I think I've had enough champagne,» his wife said.
«I love the way the glass disappears the minute it leaves my hand, and the sea eats it up. You can't see it falling and you can't hear it hit the water. But you know it's landed, dived in and sunk to the bottom. Imagine — a tiny glass holding a giant ocean.»
«You think too much,» she said, moving away and pulling him with her. «Why don't you come back inside? They're serving coffee and I think there's going to be some jazz.»
«All right,» he said. «Just a few more minutes.»
«We have two more weeks on this cruise, Eddie. You have plenty of time to take it all in.»
«It's incredible, though, isn't it? So beautiful. It's perfect.»
Lynn laughed. «It's completely black. I can't see anything in the dark.»
«I know. But it's all out there. The blue sea, the white sand, the palm trees, the boats...»
«The champagne glasses...»
«Very funny,» said Eddie. Then he pointed to the horizon. «Look over there at the dots of light. Do you think they're lights on the island or stars?»
Lynn looked hard into the night and gave it some thought. «Erm… lights.»
«But you're not sure.»
«I am sure. I'm always sure.»
«Hmm,» he said. «How is that?»
«Because I'm always right,» she said, smiling.
«Oh really?»
«Of course. I was right about setting up your own business, wasn't I?»
«Yes.»
«And I was right about selling the business off this year for twenty million — only sixteen years after starting.»
«Possibly,» he teased. He wouldn't give in so easily.
«And I was right to let you take me on this cruise to relax and celebrate in style.»
«Oh, I see. How generous.»
«Just think. You don't have to work ever again. You're a millionaire, Mr Edward Munro. How does that sound?»
«Lucky me,» he said proudly.
«Yes, lucky you. Lucky us. Now come inside before we lose all our money paying for missing champagne glasses.»
Back inside, the dining room was full of people. It was hot, but the lighting made it welcoming and comfortable. In the time Eddie had been outside, a space had been cleared for dancing and a few couples were already on their feet. In the corner, four musicians, three men and one woman, were playing a song Eddie knew well, but he couldn't recall its name. The singer was wearing a navy blue cocktail dress, and the men were wearing tuxedos, black ties and formal dinner suits.
Eddie noticed how young the woman looked. Too young to have known the tune when it first appeared, Eddie thought, but her voice was strong and clear. And she seemed to believe in the words, at least. How old was she? Twenty-five? Twenty-six? Imagine singing on a cruise ship in your twenties! What a life! The fun, the parties, the people. The places to go and things to see — before your life had even started.
It seems so easy now, Eddie thought. His twenties had been very different. And his thirties. Eddie tried not to think about his own past. Now was all that mattered. The past was the past. 'What doesn't kill you makes you stronger,' Clive, his business partner, always said. 'No such thing as luck,' he once said, 'it's simply the moment when preparation meets opportunity.'
By now, Eddie was sitting back at his table and next to his wife. She was watching the band and tapping the table. She smiled at the other passengers opposite her, who smiled back, relaxed and enjoying the moment. Eddie looked at his watch. It was almost 11 p.m., but he wasn't tired. Quite the opposite. He felt relaxed and energized. He'd always been an evening person, never a morning person.
He looked around at the giant lounge with its circular tables and well-dressed diners, and the perfect white tablecloths. The waiters and waitresses in their smart uniforms moved smoothly in and out of the room, and Eddie's eyes followed them as they carried plates and coffee and cakes and trays around the tables, along the aisles and past the bar.
Eddie watched the barman throwing ice cubes and cocktail shakers in the air and juggling them as he made the drinks in acrobatic style. He was confident and polished, and also young. Possibly the same age as the singer. Why was everyone so young these days? Where were all the cruise ship jobs when Eddie was trying to get started in life? Why hadn't he thought of working on a ship in the Caribbean?
He found himself staring at the bar in the distance. He was no longer thinking of anything in particular. He was simply listening to the sounds of jazz and the noise of a few hundred people talking and laughing.
And that was when he saw him.
That was the moment when he saw Dominic for the first time in many, many years. The man was sitting at the bar, leaning forward and smoking a large cigar. He was older now, clearly, and his hair was very grey, but Eddie had no doubt that it was him. He couldn't believe that awful man was here on the ship.
And then everything was different.
Nothing was the same. All was spoiled.
Just like before.
CHAPTER TWO
Argument with Dominic
«You know your problem, Eddie?» said Dominic Stephens in his office. «You're too hands-on.» He leaned back in his large, leather chair behind his glass desk. He seldom made eye contact. His shoulders looked tense and his neck was hidden.
«I don't understand,» said Eddie. «How can that be a problem? The team really appreciates my style and the customers love it. It's what I do best. It's why I was brought here in the first place.»
«Oh, really?» said Dominic, clearly unimpressed.
«I know for a fact that Ann and Gary didn't want an executive to run things. They wanted someone with practical experience, and drive — and lots of it. They said dull and uninspiring executives and managers have come and gone and there's been no direction, no feeling for the business. No passion.»
«And you have passion?» said Dominic.
«Yes. Do you?»
«This isn't about me, Eddie. It's about you, and it takes more than passion to do this job. You need to be a leader.»
«I am a leader,» replied Eddie. «I've done it for years. My track record speaks for itself.»
«Well, you can't do it all by yourself.»
«I'm not trying to do it all by myself, Dominic. I'm building a team. I'm training new people. Resources are limited. It takes time.»
«We don't have time, Eddie.»
What did Dominic Stephens know about passion or time? wondered Eddie. The only passion he seemed to have was being in charge. And golf. He seemed to have a lot of time for that. He even kept his clubs in the corner of his office. And today was Thursday. On Thursdays he always left early to play golf and he didn't even try to hide it.
Eddie was so angry his mouth was dry. «I don't know why you have a problem with me, Dominic. There's nothing wrong with my performance. Quite the opposite in fact.»
«Oh, really?»
«Yes. When I joined Fenton's, they were only producing software for small businesses in the UK. They had some accounting packages and sales and marketing databases, but not much else. I was brought in to expand the business and build exports, and that is exactly what I have done. I brought in some very talented people to develop our products, and we now offer some unique and very powerful programs used by the biggest and best companies globally. When I proposed and won the Moscow account, you said it couldn't be done, and now we supply the entire Russian region.»
«Erm, excuse me, Mr Passion. I won the Moscow contract for you,» said Dominic, pointing firmly at his own chest.
Eddie could not believe his ears. This was so unfair. Rage filled his whole mind and body. «You did not win that contract. You knew some of the people in the Russian state department there, that's all. I spent most of last year — and the year before — going to Russia and working long, long hours to build a business plan that would work. Don't take the credit away from me, Dominic. Without me, this company could never have won such a high-profile project.»
«Well, I still haven't seen the final numbers, and I still haven't seen the new business plan,» Dominic said, throwing his arms around.
«Yes, you have. I've kept you informed the whole time with numerous emails.»
«Oh, emails, emails! I don't have time for emails. I get about three hundred a day. How on earth can I keep up with all that?»
Well, it would help if you didn't play so much golf, Eddie wanted to say. It would help if you let me do my job and didn't interfere. It would help if you weren't so aggressive. Instead, he tried to remain diplomatic and said, «Well, if you don't read my emails, how can we communicate?»
«Simple. Pick up the phone.»
He made it sound so easy. This was ridiculous. «I do call you, Dominic. You're never there. I leave messages but you don't call back. When we do get time to meet, I don't think you're really listening.»
«I'm always listening to you, Eddie,» said Dominic in a weary voice. «Because you talk so much, that's all you ever do. Talk, talk, talk.»
«You're making personal comments, and that is not professional. I talk because I'm passionate. And I deliver. If I say I'll do something, I do it, and within budget, and you know it.»
«You were not on budget. Last year you went over budget by 25,000 pounds»
Not this again. Eddie was so tired of the same story. «I can account for every penny my department spent. No one seems to know what happened to that 25,000 pounds.»
Dominic looked at him accusingly.
«Don't look at me like that,» said Eddie.
«Like what?»
«Look, the way I see it...» Eddie began, but again he was cut off in mid-sentence. Dominic always interrupted everyone. He was like a spoilt child.
And so the situation was impossible. Eddie simply wanted to leave. He could no longer focus. He could never win.
Eddie came out of the office. His whole body was trembling, and he tried very hard not to slam the door, scream or break something. He realized he was too angry and too upset to go back to the team or finish his work. He decided to slip out of the office for ten minutes, just to calm down. He would have a coffee. Or call Lynn. Come on, Ed, he told himself. Get things in perspective. It's only a job.
He was almost at reception and the main door, when Clive passed him on the way to the photocopier. «Ed, what's wrong?» he asked, stopping in the corridor.
Eddie couldn't speak. He was afraid to say anything, as he didn't know what might come out. His face was red and tears were stinging his eyes. He looked down, ignored Clive and walked out of the door into the street and towards the local cafe.
CHAPTER THREE
Someone from the past
«You all right, Eddie?» asked Lynn, who had noticed Eddie staring at the bar. Eddie took a moment and then said, «Yes, fine. Why?» But he was still lost in thought. He wasn't sure if the ship was moving or if he was dizzy.
«You look so serious. Come on, let's dance.»
He was still staring at the bar. The man was still there. It was Dominic. Sitting at the bar barely fifty meters away, drinking and smoking. As simple as that. Was the world so small? thought Eddie. Couldn't it be a bit bigger? Why here? Why now? After all this time. Why on this ship? A familiar sickness in his stomach returned.
«Well, don't get too excited, will you?» Eddie heard his wife say.
«Sorry?» he said, turning his attention to Lynn.
«A dance! Can we dance?» Lynn said impatiently.
«Yes, sure. Sorry.»
They both got up and walked to the dance floor. They held each other and danced slowly for the final verse of yet another song whose name Eddie couldn't remember.
Turning in the dance, Eddie was pleased that Lynn was there with him as he tried to take in the fact that he was now staring at the distant shape of Dominic Stephens, on the far side of the ship's dining room. The man, Eddie saw, now turned to watch the dining room and the dancing. He was hidden in a fog of his own cigar smoke. How Eddie had hated him. And how, after all this time, he still hated him.
The memories.
The anger.
The pain.
«Are you sure you're feeling all right, Eddie?» asked Lynn when they got back to their cabin. Eddie was sitting on the bed staring into space.
«Yes. Just tired. I think I'm still jet-lagged, and I'm tired after walking on the island today.»
«You sure?»
«Yes.»
«That trip on the glass-bottomed submarine was amazing, wasn't it?»
«Yeah,» said Eddie. But he still couldn't think straight. His mind was filling up more and more with the terrible realization that Dominic was on the ship.
Lynn knew him too well. «Eddie,» she said, sitting down beside him, taking his hand and looking at him. She stroked the back of his head. «What's wrong?»
Eddie had decided to accept that the trip was now spoiled. Did he need to spoil it for his wife? She didn't have to know. They would have their luxury cruise and go home to a new life. The ship was big enough. Dominic and Eddie both looked older and Dominic probably wouldn't even remember him, so why worry about it?
But all the old feelings were there again, and Eddie could sense his energy slipping away just thinking about it. It showed on his face and Lynn could see it. Eddie could never hide much from his wife, and before he knew it he found himself weakening.
«It's Dominic. He's on the ship.» It sounded so strange to Eddie to even say those words.
There was a pause.
Lynn looked more closely at her husband.
«What?» said Lynn quietly. «Dominic Stephens? You're kidding.»
«I'm not kidding, Lynn. I wish I was,» said Eddie.
«I haven't heard that name in a long time.»
«Well, he's here.»
«How do you know he's here?»
«I saw him. He was sitting at the bar this evening when we came in from the deck.»
«Eddie, we were sitting on the other side of the dining room — you could hardly see anything. How can you be sure it was him?»
«Oh, I'm sure, Lynn. No mistake. The same fat, lazy bloke. But less hair now. And grey. And fatter.»
Lynn was still trying to take it in. «Dominic Stephens is on this ship?»
«Yes.»
She waited a moment. «Oh, Eddie.»
They both sat there for a moment. Then Lynn spoke again. She was already recovering. «Well, look, it's a long time ago, Ed. It doesn't matter any more. He doesn't matter any more. He's nothing. You don't have to talk to him.»
«I know.»
«It's a big ship,» Lynn continued. «It's extremely unlikely you're going meet him...»
«I saw him at the bar!» said Eddie.
"… and even if you met him by chance, as I said, he won't remember you." Then she looked closely at Eddie and asked softly, «You didn't speak to him, did you?»
«No,» replied Eddie. «Of course not.»
«And did he see you?»
«No.» Eddie wasn't sure if Dominic had seen him or not. Probably not. «Well, that's OK then,» Lynn said, but she knew it was an unhelpful thing to say.
«It's not OK, Lynn. It's not OK at all. That man is back.»
«He's not back. Try to calm down.»
«Calm down?!» said Eddie, raising his voice and standing up. «We lost everything because of him, Lynn, everything — he cheated and bullied and took it all away!»
«Yes, I know, Ed, but it was sixteen years ago. We've come a long way since then. You and Clive have each just put ten million quid in the bank!»
«So what? Dominic got away with it all at Fenton's!»
«It's all in the past. It doesn't matter anymore.»
«It does matter. He's still getting away with it. He still looks very pleased with himself.»
«You don't know that. You don't know his life now. I can't believe we're talking about all this after so long.»
«Because he's here, Lynn. On the ship. On our cruise!»
«Eddie, listen to me. Calm down. He and Neal gave you a bad time, I know. But you fought back and survived, and you became successful anyway. Without him. In spite of him and the things he said and did. You're here with me now, on holiday, with financial security for the rest of our lives. You did it. You climbed back out of the hole and it's OK. He can't hurt you anymore.»
«He nearly destroyed us, Lynn.»
«But he didn't, did he? We didn't let him.»
Eddie wiped the tears from his eyes. «I can't believe he's on board! Why? He's still out there getting in the way. Spoiling everything.»
«He's not spoiling anything. Only if you let him. You've come a long way since he pushed you out.»
«So why do I suddenly feel so angry? I can't believe it. I think of him and those days at Fenton's from time to time, sometimes a lot, and it never upsets me.
»Well, you went through a tough time. It was very hard. If you really did see him tonight, of course that's going to upset you. It's not the same as the occasional memory."
«Oh, I saw him all right. He still smokes those hideous cigars.»
«OK,» said Lynn.
«You went through it too, you know,» he reminded her.
«I know.»
Another pause.
«We lost so much, Lynn: the house, the money. Us. I was off sick for a year. A year!»
«I know,» said Lynn. «There's no getting away from the damage the man caused. But you have to calm down. Nothing is going to happen. You don't have to see him again or talk to him.»
«Well, what if he takes the same excursion as us at some point? Or sits at our table for dinner?»
«Eddie, there are almost 2,000 people on board. It won't happen. We can ignore him. Being the sort of person Dominic is, he's probably treated lots of people the way he treated you, so he won't know who you are or remember what he did.»
«Somehow that makes it worse.»
«Well, there's nothing we can do about it. If we see him again or he even recognizes you, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it, all right?»
Eddie was quiet.
«All right?» Lynn repeated, holding his face in her hands.
«OK,» said Eddie.
CHAPTER FOUR
After the argument
Eddie sat in a cafe not far from the office, dipping his teaspoon into a large cappuccino, and tried to think of what he could do about his job. He could leave, but that would mean giving in and letting Dominic have exactly what he wanted. Besides, it would take several months, possibly a year, to find another good job, and he would still have to put up with him in the meantime. He could officially complain about Dominic's behavior. He had a strong case. But that would only make things worse. Somehow Dominic had Gary, the CEO, on his side. And Ann Blake, the Financial Director, would never support getting rid of Dominic, since she had hired him in the first place.
«He's unbelievable. He actually said I was too hands-on,» said Eddie, stabbing at his drink with his spoon.
«Really?» said Clive, who had left the office and found Eddie sitting in the cafe.
«Yes. He also said I wasn't a leader and that Moscow was his deal.»
«You're joking,» said Clive. He seemed genuinely surprised. «That deal was yours. Everyone knows that.»
«Then he said my communication wasn't good enough.»
«Eh? He can talk. He's got no people skills whatsoever. Anyway, he never reads his emails.»
«I know. I told him that. He says I should phone him,» and Eddie laughed in disgust.
«He's never there!»
«Exactly! I said that too. It's pointless, Clive. He doesn't listen and he interrupts all the time. He's so smug. He thinks he's right about everything.»
«At least you're not alone. Everyone has the same problem with him.»
«Well, what is his problem?»
«It's obvious. He's insecure.»
«Well, it's not obvious when you're sitting in a meeting with him.»
«He's a bully in a shirt and tie. All bullies are insecure. Maybe his dad didn't show him any love. Maybe his dad's worse!»
Eddie tried to smile as he looked out of the window, as if the answer were out there somewhere. Maybe if he were to look long enough, the answer would come and find him. He doubted it. He was exhausted.
«Clive, how do they get to be in charge, these people? They're utterly useless. He's useless.»
«Yes, and he knows it. Deep down. That's why he picks on people and moves responsibility. No one actually knows what he does.»
«Yeah, and by the time they find out they have to pay him a year's salary, and then he gets another job.»
«That's his skill, though. He talks well to the top guys. But the real people don't respect him. I spoke to someone at Gallagher's the other week, where Dominic worked for about two years. They said the same thing.»
«Do you think he has any idea what people really think and say about him?»
«No, I don't think he does. He's so superior in his own mind he probably thinks we're all losers.»
«But he knows I'm good. He knows you're good too, and that really irritates him, because we know this job and he doesn't. He just moves tasks and people around all day and calls it strategy.»
«I know,» said Clive.
They both stared out of the window.
«Did you hear what he said to Steve the other day?» asked Clive. «No, what?»
"'Dominic told Steve that he got the top job because Ann and Gary saw him as a wise ambassador.'"
«Wise? Ambassador? Ambassador for what?»
«Who knows? He's in his own dream world.»
«Did he really say that?»
«Yes. And when Steve questioned it, Dominic then said he was older than anyone else anyway.»
«Unbelievable.»
«Who knows what he thinks? He's not like us. I think that scares him.»
«Where do these people come from?»
«I don't know, mate, but they soon move on. We just have to hold on. Look on the bright side — it couldn't get any worse.»
But Eddie wasn't so sure. Eddie had the feeling that things were going to get a lot worse.
And he was right.
Back at home, Eddie spent the evening trying to catch up on the work he'd missed that afternoon, and looking at the many emails he had sent Dominic. It was a nightmare.
Again and again he considered walking away from the job, but it hurt him more simply to give up. Besides, he was enjoying the Moscow project, and he had done so much work for it. When he was in Moscow, he could get on with things. He loved Russia and he loved the people there. It was such a different world from the UK; and the owners of Zariya, Dima and Tatiana, always made him feel so welcome. Over time Eddie had had to explain to them some of the difficulties back in London, and they had been very helpful. Eddie was reading one of Dima's emails and smiling again when Lynn walked into the room.
«Will you be much longer?» asked Lynn.
«Maybe. I'm behind on some deadlines, and today's battle with Dominic didn't help.»
«Just leave it now, Ed. Come to bed,» said Lynn.
«I can't. There's so much. Too much.»
«There's always too much,» Lynn replied. «It will still be there in the morning. Give yourself a break.»
«Yeah, well, that's true, but with Dominic I have to be extra careful. He picks on everything.»
«He's an idiot.»
«Yeah, I know it, and you know it, and everyone else knows it, but he's still the boss.»
«Well, what I mean is just ignore him.»
«How can I ignore him, Lynn? He's the boss! He runs the division. He runs me.»
«Well, don't let him,» said Lynn.
«I'm not letting him!» shouted Eddie. «I'm trying to stop him. That's the problem!»
«There's no need to shout, Eddie. I'm not deaf.»
«Well, you're not being very helpful.»
«Thanks a lot,» she said sarcastically. «I'm doing my best.»
«Sorry. I was hired to build a team, win a project like the one in Moscow and make things profitable. He was brought in to oversee the whole division. Then he gets bonuses for doing very little, and I get the blame when the numbers suddenly don't add up.»
«Your numbers are fine.»
«Not according to Dominic.»
«Why?»
«Oh, well, during our useless meeting today, he brought up that old story about being 25,000 pounds over budget, when everyone knows he fixed the numbers. Somehow he gets his bonuses and puts any blame on me. I'm almost certain now that he wants me out, Lynn.»
«Surely not. He needs you. If it weren't for you, good people would have left ages ago. Besides, who else could move Russia along?»
«Oh, don't mention Russia.»
«Why? That's your big success story.»
«Oh, he keeps going on about the fact that he won the Moscow contract, not me.»
«What? That's just not true.»
«I know.»
«What about Ann and Gary? Can't you talk to them about all this?»
«They've changed, Lynn. I've hardly seen them since the new partners came in. Besides, Gary and Dominic are always playing golf at the weekends. Ann's OK still, but she's very political, and I think she's embarrassed that Dominic's upsetting everyone. After all, she was the one who recruited him.»
'And Human Resources? Can't you report him to them?"
«What do I tell them? That he's got the people skills of a goat!»
«Well, that's one thing. And the intimidation, the lies and the...» It's very hard to prove, Lynn. He's got his back covered, and they would only report the whole thing to Ann and Gary. And then what?"
«Well, presumably they tell Dominic and you all get together and sort it out.»
«Easy, really. Why didn't I think of that?»
«You know what I mean, Eddie. There's no need to be sarcastic. I'm only trying to help. I hate it when you're like this.»
«Well, you're not living in the real world, are you, Lynn? You're a Primary school teacher, for goodness' sake. If things go wrong, you all get into a circle and sing a song about it. Or draw a picture. It's not that simple when you're in a multi-million pound business and...»
But Lynn had heard enough.
She was already leaving the room. Eddie stared back at the open screen on his laptop at hundreds and hundreds of emails. He thought about how much more he had to do before he could go to bed, about the hurt he had caused Lynn and about the injustice of Dominic and of people like him.
Eddie slammed down the laptop lid.
The job was broken, the evening was broken, and now his relationship was broken.
CHAPTER FIVE
Eddie's dream
Although the sea was calm, Eddie didn't sleep well. He had a dream that seemed to last all night.
It began with him lying in bed in the cabin of the ship, and waking up to find himself in his old bedroom from his childhood. But the bedroom was on the ship. He sat up in the top bunk of some familiar bunk beds. In the bottom bunk should have been his sister Ellen, but he knew his wife was the occupant now. The bottom bunk was empty, however, and he saw water coming in quietly but rapidly under the door.
In his dream, he jumped out of his bunk and straight into half a meter of water. It was ice-cold and Eddie gasped in shock. He was wearing a grey suit and black shoes, but no socks, shirt or tie. With his feet already going numb in the cold water, he opened the small wardrobe to look for them and found a public telephone. Business cards were stuck all over the wall. He noticed his own from years ago with the familiar Fentons logo. But his details were in Russian.
His stomach was tight.
His head ached.
In his dreaming mind, a thousand tasks and deadlines seemed to weigh upon his shoulders.
The phone started ringing. He picked it up.
«Where are you?» a voice shouted on the other end.
It was Dominic.
«The unmistakable, cold, demanding tone of voice: „Do you know what time it is?“
Eddie lifted the sleeve of his suit to look at his watch, but its face was frosted over and unclear. Water had got into it somehow. The hands were barely visible.
»I can't tell," he heard himself say.
«You can't tell the time? Typical! What's the matter with you? We're all waiting for you. Come on.»
«Who's waiting for me? Where are you?»
Eddie heard laughter in the background.
«On the bridge. Where do you think?» Then the line went dead.
The water was up to Eddie's knees now, and rising fast. He decided to leave the socks, shirt and tie and make his way to the bridge — dressed or not dressed. How much worse could it be?
As Eddie opened the door, water poured in at waist level, and with it thousands of champagne glasses. Most of them were intact, but many were broken. Too many for Eddie to avoid. His chest and legs were cut many times as he waded out into the corridor.
He saw Clive at the far end.
«Clive!» he shouted. «Clive, it's me! Over here!»
But Clive didn't hear him. He, too, was struggling with the strong current of water dragging him down and away at the far end of the corridor.
«CLIVE!» shouted Eddie in his sleep.
Opposite Eddie in the dream was a metal ladder which went up to the next level of the ship through a small hole. It was big enough for him to get through. This ladder led to another ladder and another hole. And another. And another. Ladders stretched all the way in a giant tunnel leading upwards. Eddie climbed and climbed. He could hear the laughter getting louder, so he decided to follow the sound.
When he reached the top, he suddenly found himself on the ship's funnel. It was dark, and a strong sea wind took his breath away. He was scared and excited at the same time. He thought the funnel would be hot, but it was not. It was at an angle, and he was looking up into the sky, almost touching the stars themselves.
«They're stars, Lynn. Not lights. You were wrong,» he shouted again (in reality, his shouting woke Lynn up).
Then he looked around and saw that the front part of the ship was already underwater and the ship was sinking.
«Lynn!» he shouted. This time it was a scream. That was when he slipped and fell and, in his sleep, flung out his arms to save himself. But there was no impact. Instead he was now standing on the bridge of the ship, which was full of people from work — from his days at Fenton's. People he hadn't thought of in all this time. People he thought he'd never remember again. People he certainly didn't want to see again.
Ann and Gary were there, but they were behind Dominic, who stood by the wheel in his captain's uniform staring at him. He was older now and heavier. The way Eddie had seen him at the bar.
«Glad you could join us. We're only sinking, you know!»
«What's going on?» said Eddie, looking around. The jazz band was playing in the corner, but the female singer was not the girl he had seen earlier. Instead it was Lynn. Singing a song whose name escaped him.
«Lynn?»
She didn't look at him. She was looking away and singing.
«LYNN! What are you doing here?» shouted Eddie, confused and frightened.
«I'm the captain. What does it look like?» said Dominic.
«No. Not you. Lynn. What's she doing here?» She wasn't paying him any attention.
More and more people were coming on to the bridge. He saw Dima and Tatiana. They spoke in Russian. Eddie couldn't hear them over the laughter of the crowd.
«Ssh. I can't hear what they're saying. And I can't remember the name of the song.»
«Never mind that, Eddie. We've got more important things to do.»
«What?»
Laughter.
«We're sinking, no thanks to you.»
«Why? What have I done?»
More laughter from the crowd.
A familiar face appeared. It was Neal.
«Champagne glasses, Eddie. Champagne glasses,» he said.
«What about them?»
What about them?" shouted Dominic. «They put a hole in the ship, you fool.»
«That's impossible.» Fear filled Eddie's mind and body.
«Oh, really? Take a look around. Glass everywhere. Holes in the side of my ship.»
«It's not your ship!» protested Eddie.
«Who cares? We'll be underwater in ten minutes. Fifteen at the most,» added Neal.
«Shut up, Neal. You're only here because of Dominic.»
Then he heard a loud buzzing.
A giant helicopter arrived and flew over the front decks. And another. Three, four, five. Dozens. Like bees around a beehive. Buzzing, louder and louder. They flew around and shone powerful lights on to the bridge. So many lights. The noise and lights were unbearable. Then sirens. Police sirens. People screaming. Eddie covered his ears and shut his eyes. He cried out: «LYNN!»
The noise lessened but the lights were bright, so bright. He was trying to open his eyes, but he couldn't. Now someone was pulling at his arms.
«Let me go! Let me go!» he shouted.
«Eddie...» Lynn said, trying to wake him up.
«Lynn?» His eyes were opening. It was so bright.
«It's all right, I'm here,» she said, holding him.
«We've got to get off! We're sinking!»
«It's all right,» she said again.
Then his eyes opened and he was finally awake.
CHAPTER SIX
Another bad meeting
The next morning Eddie woke early and his mind was racing. The house was quiet and there was little traffic outside. He felt like he hadn't been to sleep at all, and he was still angry.
Lynn was still asleep. It was 5.50 a.m. He listened to the radio for a while until he heard the news, and then he got up, had a shower and got dressed. By 6.45 a.m. he was ready for work and quickly said goodbye to Lynn before walking to the station to get the train into central London.
The train was full, but Eddie managed to get a seat by the window. It was a fast train with only a couple of stops before Paddington. As the train picked up speed and aimed for the city, Eddie looked out at the fields and industrial estates passing by. He took deep breaths and tried to calm himself before the day started. He thought about his conference call with Moscow at 9.30 a.m., his scheduled sales meeting at 12 noon, and a lunch appointment at 1.30 p.m. with Neal Skinner in Production. Then he was hoping to block off a couple of hours in the afternoon to catch up on emails and paperwork.
He got to the office at 8.15 a.m. and sat at his desk with a double espresso and a bagel. As his PC started up, Eddie sorted through some of his papers and wrote a quick to do list for the day ahead. He logged on to his email and took care of a few basic queries, before noticing that Dominic had sent a meeting schedule for 10 a.m. There was no subject heading. Eddie saw that it clashed with his Moscow call, so he rejected it and suggested rescheduling for 11 a.m., and wrote a line to ask what the meeting was about. To support his message, he mentioned that he had an important call at 9.30 a.m. and asked Dominic for his patience in the matter. It annoyed him to think that his day with Dominic was already starting on a negative note, but he tried to put it to the back of his mind.
By 9 a.m. the open-plan office was filling up, and Maxine, Paula and Gavin arrived, who all worked in Eddie's department and sat near him in the office.
«Hi, Ed! How's it going?» asked Paula.
«Fine, thanks,» replied Eddie.
«How was the meeting with Dominic yesterday?» asked Gavin. «Oh, well, you know. A challenge, shall we say,» said Eddie, trying to smile and not give too much away.
«I bet it was. Rather you than me, mate,» said Gavin. Eddie knew that Gavin and the team were on his side, but what could they do?
Eddie went back to dealing with his emails and preparing for the call to Moscow at 9.30 a.m.
At 9.20 a.m. his phone rang. It was Dominic. «Did you get the meeting schedule I sent? 10 a.m. this morning.»
«Yes, I replied. I can't do that time. I've got a call at 9.30 with Dima and his team in Moscow. I'm dialing in Adam in IT, who needs an update on the platform they're using for the new software.»
«It's too early for IT. Why are you bothering them with this?»
«Because we need their input on...»
«Look, Eddie. Forget IT and forget your call. Do it tomorrow.»
«I can't. It's taken ages to find a time when we can all...»
«You and I have a meeting at 10.»
«What about?»
«Let's discuss that then. OK?» Dominic hung up.
Eddie glanced around and noticed Maxine looking at him.
«You OK?» she asked.
«Not really. Max, can you get hold of Dima for me and ask if he can reschedule the call for any time this afternoon?»
«He won't like it,» she said.
«I know. Tell him I'm really sorry, and tell him Dominic has to see me at 10 a.m. Tell him I didn't have any warning. He'll understand.» Eddie tried to smile again. This smile was more fake than the last, and Maxine could see it.
«OK,» she said.
Eddie calmly got up out of his seat and walked across to the far side of the office floor, took the lift upstairs and went into the gents' toilet. It was empty.
He went to the sink, turned on the cold tap, collected water in his cupped hands and splashed it on his face to freshen up. The situation was impossible, he thought. Eddie felt he could no longer do his job.
For a moment or two he stayed where he was, leaning over the sink, staring at the pouring water and watching it go down the plughole. Then he looked up, reached for some towels and dried his face.
At that moment the phone in his pocket announced the arrival of a text with the sound of a mystical harp. It was from Lynn.
sorry about last night, hope u r ok. stay strong. D is a useless robot and he knows it. love u. L. x
Eddie smiled and punched back a quick reply:
thanks, love u 2. X
The text and cold water seemed to give Eddie enough strength to go back and face another meeting with Dominic. It was almost ten o'clock. He had enough time to grab a coffee before going to Dominic's office.
Eddie knocked on the door, walked in and sat down. Dominic was engrossed in something on his PC. Without looking up he muttered, «I'll be with you in a moment,» and spent the next five minutes doing more work and ignoring Eddie. He even made a phone call to someone Eddie had never heard of. Eventually, Dominic turned his attention away from his computer and on to Eddie.
«Right. What's the latest from Moscow?»
«I haven't called them yet.»
«Why not?» Dominic's tone was sharp. Eddie was always amazed at how unpleasant and cold this man was. Was he like this at home? What kind of friends did he have? Did he have any friends?
«I had a call planned for this morning at 9.30, but you asked me to change it so that we could have this meeting.»
«So when are you talking to them?»
«I don't know yet,» said Eddie.
«You need to get a call sorted as soon as possible.»
«Maxine's doing that now.»
«Maxine shouldn't be doing that sort of thing. She's only a temp.»
«Well, she sometimes takes phone calls for us in the office and sets UP meetings.»
«She's not a secretary, Eddie, she's a student! She types in data. You can't ask her to phone our biggest customers...»
Eddie's face was red, he could feel it. Already things were out of control.
«She's only setting up a conference call,» he said.
«Do it yourself,» said Dominic impatiently.
«Fine,» Eddie. It wasn't fine at all.
«And copy me in on the schedule. I want to join the call.»
«Why?»
«I want to find out when Dima's going to order the rest of the software for all the offices in the region.»
«Dominic, please leave that to me. This call is more for product training and looking at any specific problems so far. I don't want to distract him with pressure for more orders. We have time for that.»
«We don't have time, Eddie.»
«Yes, we do. At least until my next visit to Moscow. That's when we will be looking at the next orders. As a matter of fact I've got a meeting with Neal in Production today to look at costs.»
There was a knock on the door and Neal Skinner, Head of Production, walked into the office.
«Well, well. Here he is!» said Dominic. «Come in, Neal. We were just talking about you.»
«Nothing bad, I hope,» said Neal. His smile was insincere.
He was a very tall, thin man who always looked pale and wore dull suits. The Grey Man, they called him in the office. Neal was Eddie's main contact in Production for all things related to the Moscow project.
He was a cold character who took himself very seriously and had little sense of humor. Like Dominic, he had a superior manner and was stubborn. When engaged in conversation he looked at the other person critically, judging them negatively. Neal always tried to give the impression that he knew everyone and that he was in charge, but it was clear he was not really comfortable in his role and didn't really know what he was doing. He hid behind business jargon, name-dropping and things he had learned from going on too many training courses. But bosses liked him. Employees and customers did not. They thought he was a waste of time. Eddie knew he was a waste of time.
«Neal, thanks for joining us.»
«No problem,» Neal replied. So agreeable. So good with a boss around. Neal crossed his long legs and folded his arms.
Eddie now had a feeling that this meeting had been arranged, and that Neal was part of it. It was no coincidence that he had turned up at that point.
«Did you see the match last night?» Neal asked Dominic. Still no smile.
«No, I missed it. I heard that new defender Slater scored an own goal and saved us. That was very kind, thank you.»
«We're still five points ahead of you, though.»
«Not for long. You've got Chelsea on Saturday, and then you're away to Liverpool the following week.»
«Gentlemen,» interrupted Eddie, «if it's OK with you… could we get back to business?»
«The thing is, Eddie,» said Dominic, «we need more people on the Moscow account...»
Eddie wasn't sure where this was going, but he was slightly encouraged by the possibility of getting more assistance. «Right. That's good,» he said, trying to be positive. «We're short-staffed, as you know, and we could use more help.» But he still wasn't sure why Neal was there — he remained still and quiet, looking first at Dominic and then at Eddie.
"… so Neal has agreed to take charge and give you guys a hand." Dominic looked back at his computer screen, then tapped something on his keyboard. Eddie looked at Neal.
«Take charge of what, exactly?» he asked, looking back at Dominic.
«Take charge of the account. In Moscow.» Dominic gave a little laugh.
Eddie went cold. He could feel the sharp blade of realization enter his back. «Are you moving to Moscow, Neal?» he asked, confused but hopeful.
«No, mate. I'm staying in London.» Neal smiled his superior smile.
Eddie did not like the sound of this. He didn't like being laughed at either.
Eddie turned his attention to Dominic. «Dominic, I don't quite follow. What's going on?»
«I've decided to make some changes in the team. Neal has a lot of experience in this field, so you will report to him. He is now Head of Product and Business Development. It's a new position.»
Neal kept his eyes on Dominic the whole time. He looked very pleased with himself, as if he was waiting to be given a trophy of some sort.
'It makes sense, Eddie. Really," said Neal.
«I'm not interested in your opinion,» snapped Eddie. He was trying to stay calm but inside he was ready to explode. He tried to keep his voice steady. He leaned forward on Dominic's desk and looked him in the eye.
«So what's my position?» he asked.
CHAPTER SEVEN
An encounter in Barbados
The Parvina docked quietly at Bridgetown, Barbados, at 7.20 a.m. Eddie and Lynn were already awake and they lay in bed listening to the radio. At 7.30 there was a knock on the door.
«Good morning. Breakfast,» said the voice outside.
Eddie got out of bed, almost believing he would step into cold water once more, and opened the door. A young, smiling man brought in a large tray full of cereals, orange juice, pastries and a cafeteria of coffee. Eddie led him through the cabin to the balcony door, which he opened. The humid air struck him immediately.
«Phew, it's warm. Leave the tray inside,» he said to the man. «Thanks.» Eddie gave him a few dollars and the man left.
Eddie looked out across the harbour view to where blue sea met white sand, to the houses dotted about the town, and to the green palm trees inland. Market stalls were already being set up near the ship, where locals could sell souvenirs and fruit to the passengers. Eddie heard the distinctive metallic sound of a steel band and saw five boys playing down below. He could see at least three other ships in the harbour. Given his nightmare, he really appreciated the fact that this was the reality.
«Good morning, Mrs Millionaire. Another day in paradise,» he said.
«What's for breakfast?» asked Lynn, yawning.
«Get up and have a look.»
«You seem very awake and lively,» she said.
«Yes, well, after last night's trip to hell and back, this comes as a relief.»
«You were in a terrible state. Do you remember?»
«Yes. I'm trying not to think about it,» said Eddie. And he really was trying not to think about it — about the dream, about Dominic Stephens, about the real nightmare of sixteen years ago. But he knew it wouldn't be easy.
«Damn him,» he said under his breath.
Lynn and Eddie had decided to do different things that day. Eddie had chosen to go on a catamaran and snorkeling trip in the morning, while Lynn had booked tennis lessons. They took a taxi to the Tropical Beach Hotel and Spa, where they were welcomed with fruit punch and given a short talk about the area by one of the hotel guides.
The catamaran was scheduled to depart from the hotel's private beach at 10.30 a.m., and Eddie put on his life jacket and joined several other passengers and hotel guests for the two-hour trip. He was given a mask, snorkel and fins, and he waved to Lynn as he walked down to where the boat was tied up. He was carrying his deck shoes and had a towel in his hand as he made his way, barefoot, across the fine, smooth sand.
As he waited his turn to get on board, he looked down at his feet in the warm, green water and thought again about the nightmare and about Dominic. He wondered where Dominic was today. Was he on a trip? Was he even still on board?
In the taxi on the way to the hotel, Eddie had worried that Dominic would be on the same excursion. But how likely was it that he would meet him? He started feeling angry again that Dominic was on the ship. And that he still existed at all.
In spite of this, Eddie was able to relax during the boat trip. After an hour of sailing around the bay and past some spectacular beaches and coves, the catamaran dropped anchor and the small group went snorkeling near an old shipwreck. They watched and fed some stingrays, and Eddie enjoyed the calming effect of being below the surface and in a very different world underwater. He was a good swimmer and very fit. He had swum for his school and his university, and he had won medals for long-distance swimming. Even now, at home, he tried to get to the local pool at least twice a week.
When he got back to the beach hotel, he was feeling tired but refreshed. He'd caught the sun too, and his forehead and nose were burnt. He found Lynn sitting on a sun lounger by a small pool with fountains. She was reading and sipping another fruit punch.
«Hello, you. I thought I'd find you here,» he said.
«Oh, hi. How was it?»
«Brilliant.»
«You've caught the sun.»
«I know. I forgot to take some decent sun block. I borrowed some off the guys on the boat, but I think it was too late.»
«Here,» she said, reaching for some cream in her bag. «Use some of this.» She passed him a tube of cream and Eddie squeezed some into his hand and rubbed it on his face.
«How was the tennis?» he asked.
«It was cancelled. The guy never turned up, and it was too late to get another trainer.»
«Really? That's not good. We've already paid for it.»
«I know,» said Lynn, «but they're giving us lunch for free instead, so I don't mind really. I'm booked for tennis again in St Lucia in a few days, so that's OK.»
He mocked her: «Listen to you! I 'm booked for tennis again in St Lucia in a few days, she says, sipping her cocktail.» Then he said, «This is the life, eh?»
«It certainly is. Oh, look, here's Jen.»
«Who's Jen?» asked Eddie, looking around. He thought she looked familiar.
«She was booked for the tennis as well, so we came here for a drink instead and we started chatting. You'll never guess who she is.»
«I know her, don't I?» asked Eddie.
«Yes and no. The same thing happened to me when I first saw her.»
«She's from the ship. She must be,» he said. Jen was almost at the pool where they were sitting.
«Yes. Not only that. She's the singer in the band!»
«Oh yes!» said Eddie, turning to meet her. She had on wide sunglasses and a baseball cap. She wore a colourful sarong with palm tree patterns, and her T-shirt was orange with a black saxophone logo. She was carrying a drink in one hand and a cigarette in the other.
«Hi, Lynn. Is this your man then?» asked Jen.
«Yes, this is Eddie. Eddie, this is Jen.»
«Nice to meet you, Jen,» Eddie said, shaking her hand.
«Likewise,» she said. «How was the boat trip?»
«Great, thanks. They took us around some fabulous beaches. Then we stopped and swam off the reef near an old shipwreck.»
«Cool!» said Jen.
«Some stingrays came by and we were given some food for them.»
«Oh, I'd love to do that, but I'd be terrified,» said Jen.
«They're not that dangerous actually, although they can give you a nasty bite.»
«Ugh!» said Lynn.
«Or sting with their tail,» added Jen.
«Yeah, well, that's true. It's rare, though,» said Eddie. «That usually happens if you stand on one when they're buried in the sand in shallow water.»
«Aren't you afraid of sharks?» asked Jen, lifting up her sunglasses.
«I try not to stand on sharks,» said Eddie, smiling.
«You know what I mean.»
«There weren't any in the area we were in,» said Eddie, sitting down on a sun lounger next to his wife.
«How do you know?» asked Lynn.
«Well, you don't. You have to hope that there aren't any.»
«You must be mad,» said Jen.
«It's worth it. The fish you can see near the reef are so beautiful.»
«Well, Jen and I have been doing as little as possible, haven't we, Jen?»
«Absolutely,» said Jen, sitting back on her lounger and sipping her drink.
«So, no tennis, then?» asked Eddie.
«No,» said Jen. «But we get a free lunch,» she added.
«So I heard,» said Eddie. «What are you doing later?»
«Well, my partner will be here soon and we're booked to go on the Island Safari.»
«Oh, I saw that in the brochure,» said Lynn. «Is that the trip where you get a private jeep and go around the island and see the Wildlife Reserve?»
«Yes, that's it. I love all the animal trips. I can't wait. Dominic isn't keen at all, but he says he doesn't mind as long as he gets his golf, Typical! It's like he's married to the stupid game. I find it so dull. He loves it, though. Do you play golf, Eddie?»
CHAPTER EIGHT
Eddie's departure
«So, what's your position?» asked Clive later that evening at Eddie house. Eddie had come straight home after the meeting and no one had been able to reach him. Clive had been worried, and so he ha called in to see Eddie after work.
«That's what I said,» replied Eddie.
«And what did he say?» asked Clive.
Lynn, clearly angry and upset, interrupted at this point to add, «Oh Clive, listen to this...»
Eddie was trying to stay calm. He was in shock. «He couldn't give me a straight answer. He went on and on about budget control, an Neal's experience in Austria when he was with Gallagher's.»
«Neal doesn't do anything. And Austria is very different from Russia. Doesn't he realize that? This project is completely different.»
«I know, Clive, I said all that. There was nothing I could say. When I got a chance to speak, he either didn't listen or simply interrupted. Or Neal joined in with a useless reason to justify himself. It was pathetic to watch.»
«No one at Gallagher's has a good word to say about Neal, or the work he did in Austria. In fact, the rumor is that he was sacked because he messed it up. That's how he got into Fenton's in the first place. He needed a job and Dominic is an old mate of his from university. It makes me sick.»
«I know.» That was all Eddie could say. He was so tired. He rubbed his eyes.
«So there's no position for you?» asked Clive, but he could see the answer coming.
«Right,» said Eddie.
«They're making you redundant, then?»
«No.»
Clive was confused, and Eddie could not bring himself to say any more. So Lynn continued for him. «They fired him,» she said.
There was a brief silence.
«They what»
«Can you believe it? It's disgusting,» said Lynn.
Clive turned to Eddie. «I don't believe it,» he said.
«Neither do I,» said Eddie, staring into space.
«Fired for what?»
«He's using the issue about the 25,000 pounds in last year's budget, but he also said I was a negative influence on the project and not hands-on enough'.»
«You have got to be joking!» Neither Eddie nor Lynn said anything. It was no joke.
«You're very hands-on. The other day he said you were too hands-on, didn't he?»
«Exactly,» said Eddie.
«And in what way are you negative? You are more enthusiastic and positive than the two of them put together,» said Clive.
Eddie didn't say anything.
«He just wants a yes-man,» continued Clive. «Neal is the true corporate yes-man. He plays the game and does what he's told. But he's useless otherwise, and too frightened to say anything and rock the boat.»
«Who would want to be like that?»
«These guys think they're above everyone else. It's as simple as that. They have no idea what other people really think of them. They either scare you so you won't tell them, or they just talk over you in case they look weak.»
«Meanwhile, Neal gets a job and Eddie doesn't,» said Lynn.
«It's funny, but I really don't care anymore,» said Eddie. «They deserve each other. I don't want to be a part of their grey world with their grey suits and grey ideas. They have no imagination. Only a selfish need to justify themselves.»
«They can't do this, surely?» Lynn asked Clive.
«They can and they have.»
«But it's unfair dismissal. You can take them to a tribunal.»
«I'm not sure I can cope with that,» said Eddie.
«But you have to,» said Lynn. «You've got to fight it.»
«All I do with him is fight. Now he has Neal to do his fighting. And he says he has the full support of Ann and Gary, so they're no help.»
«You should have played more golf, Ed,» said Clive sarcastically.
Eddie thought about that for a moment and then said, «Now that I have no job, maybe I'll have the time.»
The next morning Eddie went into the office early again to clear his desk. There were only a few people there. He saw Adam from IT, who came over to him. He noticed Eddie was busy emptying drawers and throwing files and old documents away.
«Hi, Ed, how's it going? Doing a spring clean? Good man. Long live the paperless office!»
«Not exactly, Adam. I'm leaving, as a matter of fact.»
«No way!» he said. «I had no idea.»
«Me neither,» said Eddie, reaching for a folder and glancing quickly at its contents. He got halfway through and then threw the folder into the bin.
«What's happened?»
«I was fired yesterday,» said Eddie. The words sounded unreal when they came out.
«What for?»
«Oh, it doesn't matter.»
«You're one of the best people here, Ed. I mean it.»
«Thanks, Adam, but they don't want the best here. They just want...» Eddie stopped for a moment and looked across the office, deep in thought. «You know what, Adam, I have absolutely no idea what they want.» He turned and looked at Adam. «And do you know what the worst thing is?»
«What?»
«They don't know either. My guess is they just want to be in charge. Nothing else matters. They just want to move people around and feel important,» said Eddie, slamming a cupboard door shut and pushing his chair away from the desk. «They don't think about the people, their work, their customers. They don't care about loyalty. They don't care about building a business. They talk, have meetings and play golf, but they don't know the business and they know they need us to make it work.»
«You know your problem,» came a voice from behind them. «You were never a corporate man, Eddie.»
It was Neal. Eddie was completely taken by surprise. He was both embarrassed and furious to see him standing there.
Adam started walking away. «Look, Ed, I'll catch you later,» he said. «Let's have a drink before you go, OK?»
«Sure,» said Eddie, who decided to ignore Neal and finish clearing his desk.
«You need the skin of a crocodile in this business, I'm telling you.» Eddie tried to ignore him and carried on throwing away files, paper, software manuals. Everything.
«Besides,» continued Neal, «Dominic needs someone like me. Someone more… academic. He needs someone who can talk to him.» Eddie stopped and looked at him. Was there no end to Neal's patronizing arrogance?
«Neal, you're deceiving yourself. Dominic wants a yes-man. Pure and simple. Now he's got one. Congratulations.»
«You're upset.»
«No, really? Amazing. How did you guess?»
«Look, I don't have a problem with you. It's nothing personal.»
«That's so generous of you, Neal. I feel so much better,» said Eddie, moving up close to him. He could smell Neal's stale cigarette breath. «Well, I have a big problem with you, and, believe it or not, I am taking this very personally. I guess I'm human, not a crocodile. What would you rather be?»
«I know how you feel,» said Neal.
«You have no idea how I feel, and don't talk to me about how to talk to people like Dominic. He needs someone more academic, indeed. What does that mean? And corporate. What is corporate?»
«You have to play the game, Eddie.»
«Maybe. But I'm not interested if the end result is turning into a grey yes-man like you. Ask yourself the question: are you true to yourself? I wonder.»
«Nice, Eddie. Very professional,» said Neal, finally showing his irritation.
«And you know all about professional, do you? Open your eyes. Really open your eyes. Listen to what people say about you. You're deceiving yourself and I actually feel sorry for you. And if you want a second opinion, go and ask people here or your old friends at Gallagher's.»
Neal was walking away now, so Eddie shouted after him: «Did they give you a good reference, by the way? It wasn't redundancy, was it?» Eddie carried on putting things in his bag before sitting down to write an email to all his customers and colleagues to inform them of his departure.
CHAPTER NINE
The fight
As Dominic Stephens came out of the hotel towards them, Eddie froze. He looked at Lynn and her face said the same. Before they could make an excuse to leave, Dominic was already on the cafe terrace. His hair was grey and combed back, and he was wearing white trousers, grey golf shoes and a green polo shirt which was too tight for his large stomach.
It was definitely Dominic. The same hard face but now with a dark tan, though his chin and cheeks were fuller than the last time Eddie had seen him. He looked older and different.
«Hello, everyone. New friends, I see,» he said, putting out his hand. In a reflex action, Eddie noticed his hand go out to shake Dominic's. He instantly felt he had betrayed himself. Dominic's handshake had not changed: his palm at an angle, the fingers locked tight, difficult to grip. Do Not Enter, it said.
Again, automatically, Eddie lifted his sunglasses to be polite, but Dominic kept his on. Eddie waited for the moment when Dominic would recognise him. But he did not. This cannot be true, he thought. Is this really Dominic? After all this time, am I shaking hands with him and he does not know me? He looked at Lynn, who was shaking his hand, too. Eddie could see that she was not comfortable either.
«Nice to meet you,» she said, putting on her best smile.
«How was the tennis?» Dominic asked, leaning on the back of Jen's chair.
«Cancelled,» she said. «Then I met Lynn and we've been working hard on cocktails since we got here.»
«Ah, it's a hard life,» he said.
Yes, thought Eddie. It can be very hard. And some people make it harder. His head was quickly filling up with flashes of memory. Angry words and images.
«So, what are you guys going to do?» asked Dominic.
«Er, we've got to get back to the ship,» said Eddie.
«I thought you were staying for the free lunch,» said Jen.
«Ah, there's no such thing as a free lunch, eh, Eddie?»
Eddie wasn't sure if Dominic had recognised him. Maybe. Maybe not. Or maybe he was unsure and was playing for time? He never showed much emotion, and behind the dark glasses he looked almost robotic.
«I don't really know,» said Eddie. He was still trying to recover from the shock of Dominic standing there in front of him after so long.
«Sure. I've been in business twenty-five years and I can tell you no lunch is free.»
«Right,» said Eddie. «Right, well, nice to meet you both.»
«Come on,» said Jen, «stay for lunch.»
«No, really, I've had too much sun, I think,» said Eddie.
«Well, we can sit in the shade,» said Jen.
«No, I mean I don't feel too well,» Eddie said.
«Hmm...» said Dominic, finally lifting up his glasses and having a good look at Eddie's face, "… your nose is burnt, but you do look quite pale otherwise. You look like